sigh...

So I am a working mom.

Wow that hurts! I can't tell you how much. I have always dreamed of being a stay at home mom. It really is all I ever wanted. I remember growing up in the 70's trying to figure out why I HAD to have a CAREER. All little girls in the 70's had to have a career plan. I wanted to be Ethel Kennedy. I am a Mormon now, but I wasn't then. So my attraction to the Osmonds wasn't conditioned. I wanted a house full of boys, a few girls and lots of chaos.

For the most part, that's what I got. And still have. It's just now I'm getting a "career" thrown in too.

Don't get me wrong, I really like my job. I'm getting a promotion. I love the people I work with. My schedule is such a great fit for my family right now. It's just...

I miss deciding to make a big breakfast before taking my kids on hike, on a Wednesday.
Just because.

I miss having a pajama day, a park day, a lake day.

I miss those conversations you have when running errands aimlessly with your kids.
Just to kill time!

It's not all bad, I'm grateful for my income. I'm thankful I can take my kids to work with me.

I am very blessed! The people I work with are some GREAT friends!

I am especially grateful to the dear friend who IS a stay at home mom, and got to have a random heart to heart with my daughter.

I'm so grateful to know what it's like to have to juggle so much, and to really not have a choice.
Because I didn't used to believe a Mom ever didn't have a choice to stay home. I'm grateful I have never left my little people. That this season hadn't come along until my kids are each older.

I guess I just miss my kids, and could use a nap.

How was YOUR 4th of July?

Our's was a BANG!

J-Ron Miczo - five guys, explosive fights, firework fire-arms. welts on my back resulting from firework fire-arms, car chases resulting in throwdowns, improvised explosive devises, scorched clothes, small dead animals, lots of red bull and heavy music from six p.m. to three a.m. = a serious crash monday morning

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Shauna Packard Knowlden at 11:56pm July 6

are there any pictures from this event?

J-Ron Miczo at 11:59pm July 6

haha on my phone. videos too. it was with the beckstrands, maybe ill upload it all when im not so lazy

Shauna Packard Knowlden at 12:00am July 7

should we reserve tickets for next year?

AnnaLisa Arntsen at 12:45pm July 7

i hate you right now.....

Harlene Beckstrand at 2:32pm July 7

I'd like to see those videos....

Kaylee Andersen at 4:30pm July 7

hopefully no one blew up their hand. haha my little sister came home a couple weeks ago and told us that jeffrey told her that chandler blew up his hand with an atomic bomb. i think she was a little bit confused.

I found this little nugget of information this afternoon on FACEBOOK.

I know,
You are all envious!

Decisions?

This beauty needs a home.
I happen to have a great home for dogs!
She's 9 mos, and in love with Dieter,
like the rest of us.
Timing is not great,
but then, is it ever?

What to do? What to do?